diy

goodbye!!!

2009-08-06T21:19:00.000+08:00

I HAVE OFFICIALLY MOVED!!!! GOODBYE!!
p/s: ask if interested.. :P

still staying here..

2009-08-03T09:35:00.003+08:00

it was just my firefox unable to show everything i need to do..

for blogging.. teehee..

it's monday yet again..

meaning... FINANCIAL ACCOUNTING..

but i'm having a good deal about this.. teehee.. :D

for some of the occasions i could remember,

wednesday, went to airport's popeye to celebrate eldest's birthday..

saturday, NDP PREVIEW '09!!!

photos will be uploaded soon..

hoping that blogger won't stuck or else..

it's really goodbye from here.. haha.. :D

:D

2009-07-30T12:50:00.002+08:00

to my darling eldest sister,
happy 28th birthday..
i still love you no matter
how much i have been a pain in the ass for you..
i love you darling.. :D

ups and downs of life..

2009-07-18T21:21:00.004+08:00

i met up with these lovelies of mine..
for a trip to sentosa to support our classmate, TOMI in TEENAGE SMASH '09
even though it was just the girls lazing ard siloso beach
while tomi, hj, and g were trying to get votes for tomi..
hehe.. it was quite fun even though we spent less than 5 hrs together..
hehe.. :D

baby's friend is in the hosp due to an accident..
so baby, i hope u know why i keep saying 'ride safely k?'
:( i do feel bad for not being there with him
despite this difficult time for him and his friends
but i hope he knows that i am there ok?? :)

anyways..
i have another blog!!!
yes yes, i know..
how many blogs u want??
haha..
after alot of persuasion from ms elaiza may,
i have decided to have another one at tumblr.. :D
ask me if u want it..

i still not sure why i still have it fresh in my head.
i shouldn't be bothered.. but why am i still?? :(

stress stress stress

2009-07-15T21:14:00.002+08:00

school has been nothing but stressful..
no matter the module so far,
all i have been is being a pain in the ass for my classmates..
with the sudden out burst of frustration or just me being moody..
*it came within 2 weeks.. is something wrong with my body??
the small breakouts are getting to us..
by 10.10, we are all counting down to go down to buy our food..
haha.. oh wells..

4 more weeks and i will be separating from these lovelies of mine..
just hope we won't be strangers to each other,
like how me and my other former classies are..
:(

the meeting on monday with babylove was alright..
with the few occasions of the headache coming back,
with me just lying down on his lap,
with him kissing my forehead,
hoping that the headache will go away..
booo.. :(
missing him alot now..
my darling is currently serving his guard duty back in camp,
he left his camera phone with dearest baby sparky(his bike)
*remember that ns guys aren't suppose to have camera phones with them??

nothing much to update though..
:S
night night all..

bad bad mood.. :(

2009-07-13T14:49:00.003+08:00

just when i thought the day could be better,

it somehow turned worse..

my headache came,

my mood was worse when the day follows..

i lost interest in one thing that i LOVED

when i was in secondary school.

i just hope the day could end better

with me meeting with babylove..

sorry classies if i bursted at you for no reason..

i dun know what happened.. :(

hello world..

2009-07-12T13:44:00.013+08:00

so..
i went to school for one day only.. FRIDAY!!
finally.. gosh..
AND THE CLASS WAS OH-SO-NOISY!!!
LIKE A MONTH NEVER SEE EACH OTHER SIA..
but only one week la.. hahaha..
we had JAVA!!
and i was oh-so happy for no reason..
but of course, there was some restrictions..
like how we had to go back to class 1015-1035 (for breakout 1)
and breakout 2 was just 45 minutes.. haiz..
like primary/secondary school la sial!!
but anyway, we decided to make it fun no matter the restrictions.. :D
AND WE DID.. LOL..

baby picked me up after school..
for the first time, i waited for him outside school..
it was drizzling a lil, but he was alrd at wdlands..
so we went and to expo.. :D
spent some quality time with each other before i head home again.. :(
somehow or another, home is no longer a happy place for me
except for my darling sisters who i love oh-so much.. :D

yesterday, i went with sister to FURAMA HOTEL
for a discussion forum for graduates which MENDAKI held..
i was just there to accompany my sister..
did learn/get some useful tips
about what employers are expecting from my generation..
and how i could do well in school.. haha.. :D

met her at HSBC at 1, walked and got a lil lost but found it..
went in, sat down and listened..
walked off at 415 instead of 530 when the event ended..

walked to Great World to visit my eldest at her work place.. :D
and took 16 back to bedok.. :D
didn't want to go home early,
went to KFC, bought food as i was kinda hungry..
and lepak-ed near the house where it was far yet not so far..
get it?? haha.. :D

today was market day..
baby told me yesterday that he was helping his dad today..
and he did..
finally it was about time i saw him at the market again..
huhu.. i loike!! ;)

mummy was pissed as we had 3 recommendations of what to cook today..
someone was pissed coz she didn't get her choice..
so mummy cooked all 3.. haha.. :D
and i helped.. finally i felt useful with mummy around me..
and the dishes were : MACARONI SOUP, SOUP TOFU AND FISH & CHIPS..
hahaha.. western, chinese and italian.. hahahha..
multi-racial per??? :)

can't wait for school tmr..
i no longer want to stay at home..
even if i have another LOA (which i hope not to)
i will beg mummy to let me out!!!
even if she says no,
i will sneak out of the house.. whahah..

anyhow, today will be another boring sunday for me..
but i will make it a good one..
(mcm fhm la kau diy.)
hehe..

HAVE A GOOD DAY LOVES.. :D

a long post..

2009-07-08T16:51:00.003+08:00

this was the first thing that came to my mind when i woke up today.
i want to see the memorial service.
no matter which channel,
i want to see it,
whether it's the beginning or the end.

i only watched parts of it on etonline.com, CNN, BBC.
finally it came to my mind to watch it on youtube..
the final parts mostly.
and it was non-stop tears running
when PARIS MICHAEL KATHERINE JACKSON spoke of her father..
every single time i see that "scene",
there will be no doubt that tears will be rolling down my cheeks.
and it was just now that i cried for a whole 5 mins
when i watched "we are the world" and "heal the world"..

R.I.P. MICHAEL JOSEPH JACKSON.
1958-2009
YOU'RE FINALLY WITH THE ANGELS UP ABOVE.
YOUR MUSIC WILL LIVE ON FOREVER.

this is ooVoo.. :D hehe..
the ones that hejiang asked to download so that we can video call each other
when we are under LOA..
we can see up to 6 people.. :D
video-called with syasya, hejiang and arvie on sunday night.
experimenting with the effects and all as u can see above..

to my dearest babe, lyza..
PLEASE GO TO THE DOCTORS!!!!!
freezing cold, u slipping. haiyoh..
go la darling..
i dun want to be spending my time worrying about you all the time u know..
even when u're sick like that!!
haiz..

LOA has been nothing but boredom to me..
despite the video-calling,
i still wanna go to school..
DESPITE THE H1N1..
even though we're been petitioning to have the school closed,
and us on LOA,
we didn't think it would be under this circumstances..
will be back to school on friday,
tell me about it.. (one pathetic day out of a week)
haiz..
CAN FRIDAY COME ANY FASTER??????

my baby.. :D
you can just be there to make me smile
on my worst days ever..
i'm in love with the most perfect guy i've ever met..
i love u baby..
forever and ever..
;)

MJ..

2009-07-07T14:22:00.004+08:00

my 300th post is for you.

R.I.P. MJ.
YOU ARE FINALLY LAID TO REST..
YOU WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN BY ALL OF US..
AL-FATHEHA.

LOA..

2009-07-05T22:03:00.006+08:00

i will be on LOA this whole week..
except for friday..
that is when i go back to school..
haiz..
i am now on ooVoo
with syasya and hejiang..
something we downloaded to help us for the LOA..
haha..
webcamming with all would be so freaking fun!!!
haha.. :D

blogger doesn't allow me to upload again..
i think it's my lappie..
hehe.. :D

ARGH!

2009-07-04T20:33:00.002+08:00

i have no freaking idea why people that i call family has been getting on my nerves lately..
when i do something right, they scold...
when i do something horribly wrong, they also scold!!

i have FEELINGS TOO YOU FREAKING KNOW!!

being sisters just ain't about walking the path of life with me,
it's about being there..
when you're at home, i dun wish that you are..
but when you're not, i wish i would see your face that i miss so much..

i forgot about having a brother in the house..
that's because i rarely see him..
and when i do, it's no use..

my parents.. god!! where do i even begin????
PLEASE TREAT ME LIKE A 19-YEAR-OLD..
PLEASE KNOW I DO HAVE SIBLINGS IN THE HOUSE TODAY..
THAT HAVE BEEN RELAXING THE WHOLE DAY..
AND THEY WILL HELP IF YOU ASK..

i seriously feel like running away from home,
to let them know that they can do things without me around!!!!
why can't this week just be a peaceful one???
why must this week be the most irritating one of all??
why when i need someone, no one is there??

PISSED OFF!!!!

finally!!

2009-07-04T19:00:00.002+08:00

blogger has let me post pictures again!!
:D
lame i know.. anyways..

today is saturday..
followed mummy to a wedding invitation at pasir ris..
something dampen my mood during that timing..
i can't go out w/o FATHER'S permission.. :(
he's still mad at me..
for the website, for going out and coming home at 11!!!
argh!!!
disruption..
classies, so i hope you see this and
know that i can't be at tomi's photoshoot at sentosa.. :(
i know2.. i'm never there for any of the outings..
you can't blame me.. i want to be there..
but just RESTRICTIONS..
despite me being 19!!!
ARGH!!!!

anyways,
baby is at his part-time job at the airport i think.
thanks to H1N1..
yesterday was a day well-spent with my love..
got a new hotspot for us to chill/relax and
spent quality time with each other..
:D
ily, baby.

talking about that stupid virus/influenza,
RP HAS 91 CASES, (as known on thu)
STUDENTS WHO DO NOT HAVE THERMOMETERS,
ARE NOT ALLOWED TO GO IN THE PREMISES.
TEMPERATURE TAKING TWICE A DAY..
lame right?? bodoh nye RP..
a.k.a. Retarded Prison, Republic Prison..
haiz...

anyways,
below is something i thought i will never see in my life..
straight Xs in my daily grade..
but i got it coz i was sick..
oh well.. hehe.. :D
till then people..
ily.. :D

short short post.. :D

2009-07-02T19:54:00.004+08:00

okay.

i am not sure why blogger doesn't allow me to upload the pictures..
of my Xs and LOA being approved when i came back to school..
-.-

anyways, today was a blast..
finally went to school as i so-missed my classmates..
likes Syasya's reaction when she saw me coming towards her at the door..
hehe..
nothing great else happened.. :D

baby spent his days with his mates at the zoo and now at siglap cc for a football match..
hehe.. :D

i will be back hoping to post pictures up..
iloveyou.

sick sick sick..

2009-07-01T14:39:00.002+08:00

here i am, at home for the past three days..
down with cough, flu, and fever only for the first 3 days..
went out with family on friday for sister birthday's celabrations,
came down with fever and cough on that day.
went to the docs who gave me MC for monday if i'm not well..
i asked for LOA but was rejected..
yesterday, i went back to the docs for my cough
which wasn't improving.. another 2 days of MC
and asked for another LOA,
until now, no reply.. -.-

met with dearest babylove just now
who was kind enough to buy for me chocolate waffle.. :)
thank you baby.. muah!! ily.. :)
FINALLY, I WATCHED THIS!! OMG!! HAHA.. :D

i'm dying of boredom at home,
and can't wait to go back to school tmr!! :D
muah.. :)

:D

2009-06-25T15:07:00.008+08:00

yes yes.. my blog lacks updates.. :)

*EDITED

22th June 2009

had IT Security UT after school..

had a rough time understanding..

known a couple of mistakes after the UT..

23rd June 2009

WATCH MOVIE WITH MY DEAR CLASSIES!!!

syasya, hejiang, jen, jon, yanie and her friend..

ghosts of girlfriend's past.. :)

LIKE FINALLY I WATCHED A MOVIE..

*came home and got hell.. ate alone and slept alone

coz sis went for a overnight thing..

24th June 2009

HAPPY 22ND BIRTHDAY, 2ND SIS!!! :D

i know i have been a pain in the ass for you,

like most of the time.

you made me think i was the elder one for majority of the time i spent with you,

but in fact, i was the younger one.. :D

but no matter how much we fight,

no matter how much i argue with you over small things like the room,

i still do very much love you,

my larling sister.. muah!!

;)

got to know there were 9 cases of H1N1 in RP

and yet the school only let year ones have the one week e-learning week..

-.-

signed the petition and over 1500 until today..

whahahaha..

hope they will finally open their eyes and let us to have the e-learning week too. :(

25th June 2009

got to know that building e5 and e6,

there are also suspected cases in there..

god.. it's so near yet so far.. :(

will update again.. :D

and i'm missing my babylove badly.. :(

fun fun fun but with a bad ending..

2009-06-21T15:14:00.004+08:00

yesterday, i went out with my lovelies,
elizabeth and mashita.. :)
met up with lyz at tamp (da usual da!)
went ard tamp one, ate at ljs in tamp mall,
went back to tamp one while waiting for mashita to arrive..
as we were standing there coz lyz needed a puff,
i turned and saw someone unexpected..
oh wells..
met up with mashita, off we went to Kolam Ayer CC
to watch dancefest '09.
took 23 and reached there by 7..
mashita went to her house, went to the CC to get the tickets..
and we were there watching the show from 730 to 10..
our butts were hurting like crap and we kept on figeting..
especially the one sitting on my left.. ;)
finished, went out and relaxed with them..
it was quite sometime we just hanged out the 3 of us..
remembering sec sch days and off we went home..

the best part was dearest father was pissed i went out..
mummy asked me to take cab from kembangan..
the usual..
stupid fucking shitass idiot!!!

ruined the mood starting from then on..
good thing baby was there.. ;)

it was good that after a while,
we met up and had a good time remembering the past..
:) love you babes.. MUAH!

had a lot of time with these girls the past few days..
thanks babies for being there for me..
love ya lots..
can't for tmr!!!
muah!!

headache.

2009-06-16T13:10:00.004+08:00

this is just the first week after school reopen.

and i'm feeling a heck lot of tiredness.

moody. (not sure why also coz period has finished)

having a minor headache.

having baby worried for me for my situation today.

powerpoint almost done, just needs touch ups.

it's only tuesday.

i still have 3 more days of school.

after schools, i have UTs which are really straining my brain.

where i still are not sure of what has been going on during class.

i'm glad to have someone like you to be my side good and bad.

i love you very much my babylove.

this is my current hair colour..

you can see the slight maroon tone..

just if u wanted to see how it is.. :)

:)

2009-06-13T21:12:00.002+08:00

i met with babylove after a week..
gosh i miss him so..
sorry baby for not going out with you..
but meeting is enough even for us..
right babylove???

after meeting with baby,
sis and i decided to go to the salon
after a long time..
she decided to get a rebonding session..
so to pass my time accompanying her,
i decided to dye my hair!!
haha..
after so freaking long,
the last time was just blond streaks..
haha.. :)
and i am IN LOVE with it..
huhu..

somehow, i am happy that school is starting soon..
but the thought of UT is seriously killing that happiness..
but i am happy to see my classmates which i oh-so miss..
hehe.. :)

i love you, my baby..
no matter how we spend our time,
i am still grateful to see you..
:)

pissed off like F**K!!!

2009-06-10T22:56:00.002+08:00

THIS CLEARLY HAS MY FATHER WRITTEN ALL OVER IT..
HE JUST WON'T LET ME ENJOY THE REST OF MY HOLIDAYS VERY WELL..
PUSHING ME TO DO HIS WEBSITE AND ALL..
AND HE INSULTED THE COURSE I AM IN..
DESPITE KNOWING THAT I JUST KNEW WHAT I WAS STUDYING THIS YEAR ONLY!!
GUESS YOU DON'T KNOW EVERYTHING ABOUT THIS DAUGHTER OF YOURS HUH??
GUESS YOU DON'T KNOW THE WHOLE FAMILY BUT YOURSELF..
BEING THE MAN OF THE HOUSE AND ALL.
YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT OTHER PEOPLE'S FEELINGS BESIDES YOURS
AND WHEN THE OTHER PERSON WHO IS BREAKING DOWN,
THEN YOU TALK!! ARGH!!
STUPID IDIOTIC FUCKING SHIT!

ok.. sorry people.. just needed to vent all this anger out..
pfft!! and the only person who was there for me,
was my boyfriend.. ;)
he's the only person who can just listens to me
and knows how to keep me nice and calm
when i really have settled everything down..

i'm not even sure i know my family anymore..
my siblings are always on the "work" end of things..
won't see them until their off days or they just come home before i go to bed..
or i won't see them at all until the WEEKENDS!!
oh well.. that is what you get for being the youngest..
PPFFFFFTTTT!!!!!!!!

i guess this is just the beginning..
oh well.. just have to toughen it out i guess..
just hope i can last long before i do something..
oh well.. good night all..

idiotic stupid shit ass freaking dumb!

2009-06-07T22:02:00.004+08:00

just as i thought i would spend my last week of hols,
"studying" for the 4 UTs i have to re-take..
my father forces me to do shit ass fucked up things for him
and i have one FREAKING week to teach him..
WHY DON'T YOU DO IT AND I WILL!!!!
GGGGGGGGGGGGGGAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
fucked up asshole u know!!!! argh!!!!

OK!!!!!!!!!!!
LET'S PUT THAT ASIDE.. AND CONCENTRATE ON THE GOOD THINGS IN MY LIFE THAT I AM GRATEFUL FOR!!!! PFFT!!!!

the class bbq that i had on thu.. ;)

this is me and syasya.. hehe.. we were taking the pictures
as tomi, zin, arvie, jen, G, hejiang were out blading.. hehe..
photographer : jon.

this was when all was sticky and
i think this was the people of W64A that was present during the bbq..
hehehe..

this was the most kecoh-able part of all..
everybody wanting to get in the picture..
because it was on timer.. hahahha.. :P

and the last part of it all..
was when darlings hejiang, zin, arvie, jen walked with me..
only zin, arvie and jen sent me to bayshore
to catch a cabbie home.. :)
hejiang wanted to bath before going home..

that was the most "RELAX-ED" day with W64A...
hahaha.. :P

JUST HOPE..
I WILL HAVE A BETTER POST NEXT TIME..

baby is trying his best to cheer me up..
poor boy..
but that is why i love you so damn much..
muah!

:D

2009-06-05T16:29:00.003+08:00

yesterday was spent with these dearest people of mine..
my W64A peeps..
:)
met tomi, jon, zin at temasek sec bus stop.
waited for arvie and then proceeded to ecp
to meet the rest; syasya, jen, hejiang and G..
ate at food lagoon..
some played roller blading, took pictures which we have yet to receive.. ;)
and at 5, we took the food at kembangan.. :)
yummy2..
went back, and started the fire..
and we started cooking when it was ready!!!!
soon, one by one started to come...
but majority wasn't there coz of school and all..
:(
but we still had fun all by ourselves..
sadly i had to leave them..
be home before 11..
arvie, jen and zin walked with me to take cabbie back home from bayshore that area..
ULU SIA!!!
hahaha..

good to say that some were there when i didn't expect and those i thought would come, didn't..
haiz.. nvm.. soon kk people?? the 5 weeks hols now.. hahaha.. :D

imissmydarlingbaby.. :(

to my dearest fren..

2009-06-03T16:11:00.003+08:00

this is my dearest friend, catherine nicole..
was just talking to her..
about her life and all..
going through a rough patch right now..
but all will be alright..

babe..
you know you will do the right thing
when the time comes..
there's a limit to his behaviour
and you are going thru uni right now..
so..
stay focused for your exams next week..
and everything will come naturally to you..
it always does.. pfft!! hehe..
anyway,
we'll be waiting for you when
you get ur ass back here..
love you babe..
always have and always will..
tc loves.. :)

ILOVEYOU.

2009-06-02T21:45:00.002+08:00

I LOVE YOU VERY VERY VERY MUCH...
I'M GRATEFUL THAT YOU ARE IN MY LIFE AGAIN..
I'M BACK WITH THE LOVE OF MY LIFE!!!
MMMMMUUUUUAAAAACCCCCCKKKKKKSSSSS!!!!!!!!!!!

i'm really sorry...

2009-06-02T19:50:00.003+08:00

I'M REALLY REALLY SORRY..

i made a decision that changed my life forever..
not only to me, but to him..

i will grant u to leave you alone..
but i will msg you again..
when the time is right..

you have brought me nothing but happiness that i have never gotten from anyone..
you have reminded me several times that i still do have my family..
you also have reminded me that i have you..
but it's all gone thanks to me..
i really do miss you..
i will always and forever love you,
for you are the only one that made me feel special..

i'm sorry i had to end it..
if i could rewind time...
i would..

despite it was me who made the text that changed my life,
i'm tearing.. that does mean something right??
i really can't do anything right now..
except just reminiscing about the times we had together..
i'm truly madly deeply sorry for this to be happening to you now..
i truly am..

new moon baby!!! :D

2009-06-02T17:20:00.002+08:00

WOHOO!!! I WANNA WATCH THIS!!!!!!!!
NEW MOON...
SEX-CITING NYE!!!
:D

reality hasn't sinked in..

2009-05-30T15:58:00.004+08:00

i know it was hard for you to see that msg..
believe me when i say,
it was hard for me to type it in..
it just doesn't feel right anymore.
you do make me feel happy.
i just don't know where i went wrong..
with anything that i did for you..
i know i haven't given you my all after i started school..
you were busy too..

it just feels wrong..
anything i say to you..
i still do care for you, trust me on that..
maybe in a friend way..
but not any closer..
i apologised deeply for anything i've done wrong to you.
please please please..

went to kc family day earlier on..
it really has changed..
boys everywhere..
hahha.. we wanted it but now,
it looks very very different..
saw teachers who still remembered me..
saw friends whom i never seen since ages ago..
it's just very different..

thanks to my darlings, tasha and eunice
for your eyes and ears..
i really appreciate you girls alot..
meet up soon again kk?

i still think i'm in that position again..
reality really hasn't sinked in.

:)

2009-05-27T13:29:00.003+08:00

hello there.. :D
now my team consists of serene, alan, syazana and tomi..
having data comm.. :D
good to say.. i'm having fun today.. ehehe.. :D

AND TODAY.. MY CLASS ORDERED MACS..
since hejiang had been having crazings from last week..
heh..
below is the picture of us just starting our feast!!! :D

on monday, i partial with mazin, hejiang, kastari (hejiang's fren), serene to seoul garden..
jen met us at seoul garden since she didn't have school on mon..
hejiang's treat.. huhu.. then played arcade.. a first for me whith them.. :D
since they were gonna watch movie at 530, (a lil late for me)
i decided to go home.. :D

ystd, since there was a UT but not ours
and another year 2 class was using our class,
me, alan, tomi, dom, joseph, arvie went to the library
and played TABOO..
with me, arvie and alan thinking of what joseph was saying...
hehe..
COMICAL SIA!!!!

on friday, since it's the last day for the term,
my class was thinking of ponning school and
go ice-skate at kallang..
i dun think i will be following..
not sure also who is going..
since it was JAVA, they immediately said YES!
hahhaa.. typical sia.. ahaha... :D

oh well..
hoping to go KC family day on sat..
if mummy is willing la.. hehhe...
either with mashita and mira or eunice and feli..
hahaha.. :D

hoping to meet baby also on that day..
for not meeting for 3 weeks..
miss him so much.. :(

so long people..
will update when i feel like again.. :D

happy 18th

2009-05-26T09:18:00.001+08:00

TO MY DEAREST SHAFIQAH,
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY.
HOPE YOU ENJOY THIS DAY WITH YOUR LOVED ONES.
TAKE CARE DEAREST!

bloody hell...

2009-05-24T18:16:00.002+08:00

ok... proper update..
still damn sick despite going to the doc's twice..
both bills $40++...
bleargh!!!!

school is having our last week.. before term break
and 10 weeks full after term break..
please tell me when it's gonna end when it comes..
pfft!!! good thing the last week, we'll be only coming for UT.

having been seeing my girls ever since... feb??
god.. miss them so damn freaking much!!!!
and it's all my fault for having strict parents... pfft!!!!

missing baby also oh-so-much!! :(

got to go now.. goodbye darlings..
i know this ain't right.. but i have got to stop this when it comes around.

HAPPY 9TH MONTH DEAREST!

2009-05-22T22:17:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 9TH MONTH MY DEAREST BABY! ILY.

stressed stressed stressed!

2009-05-21T14:13:00.014+08:00

SCHOOL IS STRESSING THE SHIT OUT OF ME!!
AND THIS IS ONLY THE BEGINNING OF SECOND YEAR!! BAH!! :(
UTs are screwed.. -.-
should have tested before we got back to school... hahaha..

sometimes when you think it through,
it makes sense the first time.
but when you think of it all over again,
it doesn't make sense
and you're hating yourself for what you did..
i've been doing that all my life
regretting every single decision i made for the last 13 years (w/o my childhood)

maybe this time i really understand why i did a particular decision.
whether to leak a secret between 2 people
or just go against my OWN rule
to add someone thinking that person could make my life less miserable???

maybe i did learn my lesson for any of the things i did..
but will it last long?? will the person have a comeback in my life??
will i be the vulnerable idiot i was in sem 1?
just a good sweet-talker can lead me into a trap hole
and i'll be in it for quite sometime before i break myself out from it.

hoping this will never happen, (which i think it will)
i'm still loving parts of my life.
which has friends, boyfriend and family.

cam-whoring in class when the brain reaches maximum... :D

memories fading away quickly..

2009-05-16T12:31:00.009+08:00

i have alot to update about..
syasya's bday.. alan's bday combined with 3 others..
which i said earlier on.. hmmm..

Zin, SyaSya and me.. hehe.. :D

me and SyaSya syg.. :D

cerella's bday was on 8th may.. so celebarted her bday belated.. hehe.. :D
this is my darling syasya.. her bday was on the 11th as told in the previous post.. celebrated her bday as well.. coz on the day, we just gave her a card with all our wishes.. (also in the previous post) this is on her bday itself.. :D teehee.. :)this is alan.. his birthday is a week after mine.. hehe. celebrated on the day itself.. on wednesday..
:D hope you had a nice birthday dearest.. :)
this is gina.. we celebrated her bday in advanced..
so no need to collect money again.. hehe.. :D
so this is the family gathering on sat 090509.. at jln tenaga.. :D to celebrate my grandaunt's bday and mother's day.. you just minus me, sis, mummy and granddad.. u get their immediate family.. large huh?? oh well.. :D got this picture from one tree hill.. you should really follow up.. 6 friends from high school still together after 10 years?? how i wish my friends would be there for me 10 years down the road.. gosh.. i really miss my darlings from sec school..
eunice.(i miss our small pep talk.)
felicia.(should really meet up soon.)
lyza.(miss when we can jsut talk about anything and everything.i need that badly now.)
mashita.(sorry darl.been busy with school lately.try to meet u during my 2 weeks hols k?)
mazin.(no need to say as we're in the same class.) haha!!!
natasha.(see her once in a while also.) ;)
catherine.(who is currently in aussie doing her uni.just miss her cheerful side.)

other friends including
emika.(hope our friendship goes beyond darl).

just a small note for myself: gone for a while, came back within minutes. :'(

i miss boyfriend. have fun in JB with zaki & sham darling. come back safely. ily.

have a good day readers.. :D

wakaka.. :D

2009-05-12T21:40:00.004+08:00

hello darlings.....
school has been A-OK!
with my second A and the rest divided between Bs and Cs..
must work harder for a better GPA!!!

last friday with baby was just fine.. together with sham and rzan..
walked around town and ate at a place.. :( not so good food.. pfft!!
baby sent me home..
and since fri was spent with his frens, mon was spent alone with him..
pity my baby..
otw to school, he saw that woodlands area was cloudy, so asked me if it was raining..
i just said.. just in case.. i meet u at tamp or bdk..
after getting to 168, stopped at ikea bus stop to wait for dearest baby..
he fetched me and we went bdk reservoir..
when we were there, he told me that we might be meeting sham and zaki here,
as they were going for a jog.. haha.. in the end, didn't bump into each other..
so.. now have to wait for another ??? weeks/days to meet my dearest lover again.. huhu...

to SYASYA syg, wanna wish u a HAPPY BELATED 19TH..

just got for her a big card with everyone's wishes on them.. :D and we gonna celebrate other birthday's soon.. 6 BIRTHDAYS IN THE CLASS FOR 3 WEEKS.. hhaha.. yea!! may baby yo!! -.-

will update soon.. i guess.. :D hehe..
iloveyou, darling.

HELLO!!

2009-05-10T22:18:00.004+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates.. hehe..
ever since my bday, school has been alright..
hehe.. my third C for just the third week of school.. pfft!!!
celebrated mother's day today with me and 2nd sis sharing pizza..
earlier on, went round about singapore giving mother's day cake to my grandaunt's..
:D with aunty's cake.. huhu.. i like!!!!!!!!! and we got a cake too!!! huhu..

life with baby is ever so nice.. with him around.. i can never think of failing..
i just love u syg.. muah!!!
living the life i have ever wanted.. it feels quite good i think..
haha..

mummy's bday is on the 15th...
parent's anni on the 29th..
haiyoh!!! hope won't be taking out anymore money.. huhu..

tomorrow is SyaSya's 19th birthday!!!!!!!!!!!!! :D
can't wait even though i havent done anything for her.. haha.. :D

BLAST!

2009-05-06T12:22:00.007+08:00

done by Sya Sya..

MY BIRTHDAY CAKE!!! :D
me and alouis. another classmate whose bday was also today. :D

me and Sya Sya.. :D

a birthday kiss from mazin and jen.. :D
the class without ALAN!

ok... the birthday i thought i would regret happened to be a good birthday.. :D
for the first break, they asked me to the toilet..
which was what happened last year too.. but only different breaks.. -.-..
then i knew it.. haha..

after school, went home to put my bag down, chill and went out again for dinner
AT PARKWAY'S SWENSENS!!! :D
met everyone and we ate to our heart's content till everyone was complaining of stomachache..
haha.. :D

my sisters and I

me and michelle jie-jie.. :D
and darling emika..
thank you for the birthday wish on your blog..
no worries kk? :D muah!! love you too babe.. :D

:(

2009-05-05T12:42:00.003+08:00

hello!!! i'm back.......... hehe.. :D
currently in school finished doing my part of the presentation..
the class is half full/empty.. hehe...
and i'm missing my darling baby very badly... :(
haven't seen him for more than 2 weeks!!! :(
just hope this week will make up for all of those 2 weeks kk? hehehe.. ;)

birthday is tomorrow and i dun feel the excitement or anything..
literally NOTHING!!!! BAH!!!
this somehow or another sucks..

class has been not bad.. hehe.. :D
except for my first C and the very brain straining modules.. hehe..
oh well.. hehe.. :D
life without you has been painful and satisfying at the same time.
hope everything's ok. take care.

*EDITED

this are the 2 sandals i bought yesterday with mazin at tamp royal sporting.. huhu.. :D
since i was the one who almost broke my sister's other ipanema sandal, then i shall buy it for her to replace it. but it's not the same.. haha.. actually, i followed ma to buy her mother's day present.. but it was more of she followed me.. haha.. and when we went to isetan to buy her present, i also bought something for myself.. haha.. :D i'm happy with the "present" i bought for myself.. ehhe.. :D YAY!!!

but i still have no mood tomorrow and i know the class is planning to buy something.. since there is another boy whose birthday is also tomorrow.. haiz..

i think i should be thankful.. :D *am i?*

boredom!!!

2009-05-01T16:34:00.003+08:00

hello!!!!!!!
ok.. it's currently labour day and i'm bored to death at home!!!!!!!!!!!
bah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can i just say i hate my life when i'm at home??
hmm...
oh well.. pfft!!!
this are my new darlings in school... SyaSya and MAZIN!!
haha.. i know.. ma has been with me since... sec 1?? hahaha..
and syasya's bday is in may too!!! huhu.. Exciting nye!!! muahaha.. :P
class is already planning an outing to Msia... haha.. fast huh?
haha.. doubt i can go also... plan to physco them into booking a chalet instead..
:D

having a talk with dearest cuzzin, irfan.
he does have good points about my behaviour..
haha.. didn't know he had that in him..
maybe because i never "knew" him before..
anyways..

:(

fucking shit pissed off!!!!!!!!

2009-04-27T21:28:00.005+08:00

today has been a good day gone bad...
which means... HOME!!!
and this is why i want to go home as late as possible..
:( can i please have my ciggies now?? :(

you seriously think i have nothing better to do than just be paranoid with you is it?
it's ur ridiculous stupid questions that make me pissed.. and when you come home,
it seems like you have no duty to HELP-OUT until almost everyone is helping..
that is why i am angry BITCH! sorry to say la.. but i do respect you for somethings and
this is not one of them.. please la.. act like one to be respected like one. and don't everytime complain to mummy dearest to have mummy doubt me as her daughter can??

sometimes i really wonder why people hate me for who i am? 19 years and counting.. you have been with me and yet, you complain every single bit.. i have never complained about you and all you do is complain before even knowing why? sometimes i really wonder if i am in this family. it freaking hurts me to know that you have not known me enough to know what goes through every single thing. yes, not everything evolves around me, it doesn't for you too.. please act like the one that i can look up too.. please.. and not fail me like the rest of the family already has.. please?

:'(

2009-04-24T19:40:00.005+08:00

please let everything be alright.. for me to concentrate better.. please please please.

a special thank you to dearest bf for always being there for me when i need a shoulder to cry on or a listening ear to what has been happening at home..
i realise without bf, my life would be lonely.. the girls are also having their own problems..
and i would be crying to myself to sleep.

finally a week of school has finished.. and i just realise next week friday is may day.. ahah.. -.-..
FA will be on monday and Java will be on friday.. cracking our heads for the first and last day of the week.. pfft.. haha.. anyways..
imissallofyou.. :(

reading our old conversations together, makes me miss you more. but i know i shouldn't. take good care of yourself.

pfft!!!

2009-04-23T20:03:00.003+08:00

the moment i stepped in the house.. i knew something was wrong..
and it was.. pfft!! must you spoil my mood..???
now this is why i don't wanna reach home early.. pfft!!
and now.. i miss finishing school at 415-430..
UT faster come!!!!!!!!!!! bah!!!!!!!!!!!

java was a killer for having a faci like mine..
good thing my class is nicer than expected and helped each other..
so we pulled through till the 3rd meeting.. phew!! good thing she gave my team a easier solution to solve after doing the ppt.. -.-
and good thing i had friends who already did.. huhu.. :D

dearest baby is in the jungle.. pfft!!! the last time i msg-ed him was errmmm.. 6??
i'm missing him really really dearly... :(
baby.. i need you.. badly..
and i miss you a hell lot!!! bah!!!!!!
if the house wasn't this crazy this past week.. i wouldn't need him as much as i do now..
not saying i only need him when the craziness comes in.. just i need him now, more than ever..

or maybe i just need something to chill me down?? ciggies?? ~~drinks??~~ OR MY GIRLS!!!
GOD.. I MISS YOU SO DAMN MUCH LA.. PFFT!! well.. maybe this time next week.. i could.. since i'll be getting my PAY!! wakaka.. can treat myself for my birthday gift for myself.. whaha.. :D *diy smiles damn freaking widely!!* anyways.. i think i'll update over the weekend..
just hope he doesn't pester me for anything then!!!
pfft!!!!!!!
ggggggggggaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

simple yet full post..

2009-04-22T21:31:00.005+08:00

dedicated to the asshole who already ruined my life..

the asshole struck again.. non-stop making the people in this house miserable..
why do these people live longer than nice people?? god.. i just wanna kill sometimes when he's around.. pfft.. why why why?????????????? gggggggggggggggaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!!!!!that will leave me.. here alone..
miserable with the father that i have.. and feeling shitty all the time..
this is the time when i really need ciggies.. literally need them!!!
bf is having his outfield.. so going to be occupied.. -.-

not sure why also for the past 3 days.. but.. what the heck.. 2 more days and the week has gone by..
and so.. not that many things will be on my mind continuously..
have been talking with lyza dearest.. catched up with somethings..
today was KC's annual EMDD.
thought of going.. but no money..
so sorry sayangs.. u know i would love to see all of you again..
but.. no matter what.. i'll still be here for u when u need anything.. loves. (:

to emika darling.. please take good care.. panjat batu pun careful tau.. heeh.. ;)

and btw.. happy 8th monthsary darling baby...
p/s : ily.

first freaking day of the freaking 2nd year...

2009-04-20T20:11:00.004+08:00

first day back in school was not that bad...
the first thing was i was late.. bah!!
i think it was just my judgement and something had to go wrong for me to finally find it out...
then went into class and met my new class of 16 weeks..
haha.. didn't go for breakout 1 since my team was doing worksheet that took us the whole 45 mins of it... and my stomach was already growling.. hahah.. :D
then went down for breakout 2 to w4 canteen with dearest mazin..
AND I SAW MY DARLINGS SHARON AND LIYANA.. hahah.. :D
and fakh of course.. haha.. :D
ate together and had to be in class by 1pm.. to finish up ppt..
all of us were like practically rushing as we had 3rd meeting by 145..
in the end.. the faci extended till all were done.. which was like.. 2??
hahaha..
and went home EXCEPTIONALLY EARLY... by 6.. i was already home.. bah!!!!!!!!!
-.-... anyways.. it was KINDA fun i guess..
hahha.. will be "looking forward" to the rest of my 16 weeks for year 2 sem 1..
hahah.. :D

you seriously couldn't let things go your way every single time..
i don't think you need to know me much more in depth than i don't like to be pushed..
and you know my limits.. you should.. right?? bah!!! i'm hating the feeling i'm having right now.. :(

i'm glad that it didn't happen.. whatever that was lingering in my head for the whole freaking day..
but i kept asking myself.. is it my fault why it happened this way? anywho, it's still lingering in my mind..
should it??? :(

i'm missing you badly baby.. i really wish you could be at my side when today was over..
as i needed a shoulder to cry on and have a talk with..
but you already had that when i called you.. you just know what is best for me don't you?
oh well.. that is why you're my dearest baby.. i just love you tau!! huhu..

i'm missing my girls badly.. eunice.. felicia.. elizabeth ng!!! bah!!!
or can i just go out and have the laughter of my life with mashie and mira???
is it possible that i can have that right now?? :(
i really need girls day out with all of you soon..
REALLY.. I'M GOING CRAZY NOT SEEING YOU GIRLS AND HAVING MY TIGHT HUGS.. :(

happy happy post..

2009-04-18T22:48:00.004+08:00

i just came back from a date with my lovely bf.. huhu.. thank u baby..
so met up with him at 33... i was wearing the dress he bought for me at taipei.. ;)
baby was "wohoo." haha.. even though it was damn hot and the dress was big, i still wore it.. haha.. :D then we went to town.. he asked me this "b, u not sick of town yet right?" haha..
when he was already on the expressway... baby cute la.. haha..
anyways.. parked at wheelock and went to have a makan at lido..
then msg-ed his bestie.. asked if he wanted to join us coz he was at town also..
but didn't.. and we watched "FAST AND FURIOUS!" haha.. thank u darling..
after that, met his bestie and other frens who were in the area..
chilled with them till 815.. and it was time to go home..
well.. not exactly.. chilled again at 33.. until 930..
now instead of sleeping, that baby of mine is playing dota with his mates.. -.-
scolded him coz yesterday he only slept for 2 hrs and tmr he has office duty..
haiz.. masih gitu.. tetap syg that darling baby of mine.. hehe.. *muacks*
now.. i should have a good night sleep.. as tmr will be a very "busy" day for me.. ahha..
ever since i hadn't been to the market for a month, my mum said "she has her sunday "group" again.. -.- haha.. nite dearies.. :D

*iloveyou my darling.. thank you again for today.* ;)

:D

2009-04-17T21:57:00.009+08:00

i was feeling this way just now.. right before dearest bf called.. huhu.. :D
a day at home alone.. before granddad came home from prayers..
i must say.. i haven't felt like this shitty for a long time..
and to prevent me to wanna start smoking again,
then it's a good thing that school is starting..
either way.. i think i'm gonna take back..
up to date.. i haven't smoked a stick for a month..
haha.. not sure why so good also...??? hmm.. maybe for bf??
maybe.. hehe.. masih syg kamu baby.. huhu...

making sure i dun make the mistake again.. i have decided to make all the efforts to myself.. haha.. enjoying katekan.. hahha!!! :D (personal shit!)
i have been watching this ladies THE WHOLE FREAKING DAY... hahah.. omg.. they are so FREAKING SEXY!!! and right now, i am listening to them.. "perhaps3.." huhu.. :D

i'm not sure why i have been feeling anything anymore.. maybe i just don't care?? maybe i'm sick of everything u have tried to make me love you more than i can ever... after ONE raya.. it changed my whole prespective of you.. yes.. i am still kissing u and all.. but it was all to make up for the 3 siblings that don't really care about u anymore.. it was to make u feel that u are something in the house despite several things that u did that damaged the house that it is today.. so.. don't even think of trying to make me feel good when u're making me feel irritated and yucky okay? and ur partner just made me pissed back again.. soulmates huh?? one heart united.. me in this family is like something useless.. grandfather just insulted my cooking.. good thing it's my last dish for quite sometime then.. :( god.. why why why???

:'(

kk.. that is about it.. haha.. :D

:'(

2009-04-17T11:19:00.002+08:00

so.. i just finish watching this... yes2.. i know..
a little bit outdated huh diy?? haha..
anyways.. when they were at war...
i was crying coz i didn't really have anyone to be doing that with me when it comes..
maybe... 3-5 people in my life now that i would love to see when it comes???
with the exception of dearest family.. huhu...

anyways... i woke up from just now.. and now.. i'm still in bed.. huhu...
*diy smiles widely..*
wkakak... anyways.. the plans for todays are as follows;
-BATH!! duh!! haha..
-heat up leftovers from yesterday..
-watch tv if there are any nice shows to be watched..
-LAPPIE!!!
-cook by 3-4...
-LAPPIE and TV!!! huhu.
and the rest.. i'm currently not sure about.. hahaa.. :D
k la peeps.. better be off.. need to bath.. aha..

iloveyou darling..

school is starting...

2009-04-16T12:08:00.004+08:00

shoes at work.. does it look nice or what????!!!!!
bah.. and the good thing is.. IT'S $90!!!! and the brand... JLO!!!!!!!!!!!
hahahha... took out more shoes and saw alot more that i liked than usual... :(
*must spend my salary more wisely this time around..* huhu...
and so.. yesterday was the last day of work for me..
a senior gave me an advanced birthday pressie.. huhu..
a shirt.. hahaha.. :)

woke up too early this morning.. like i was going to work.. haha..
but when i realised i have stopped, i totally took my blankie and slept till around 9..
when my eldest woke me up to follow her go to the docs at tampines..
hahahha...
and now, i'm back at home.. with nothing to watch on tv...
so here i am blogging...

SCHOOL IS STARTING ON MONDAY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
BBBAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!
can say the excitement is there.. but can say a big part of me not wanting to start so damn early.. bohoo... damn it!!!!!!!!!!
made plans with mazin to meet at bedok at 7.40.. for the first day that is...
and see how the bus schedule is and all and shall make the specific arrangements..
since the class is all the way at the top.. -.-
at least 10 minutes walk from the bus stop to the class... hmmm....
and also made arrangements with my darling liyana...
who was almost late for every module last sem...
since same blk and same level... decided to meet up at wdlands and see how.. hahaha...
8.40am kk liyana?? huhu.. :D

k la.. will update when i feel like it.. huhu..

2ND YEAR... HERE I COME... BAH!! :(

post post post..

2009-04-14T09:51:00.002+08:00

so this is what my new hair looks.. huhu.. kk feli??
hahah..
so..
tomorrow will be my last day at work..
suppose to be on sunday but my manager asked if i could extend for another 3 days..
and so i did.. tomorrow will be my last full shift..
will miss working with crazy people all the time.. haha..

so now.. i'm currently looking at my new class that starts next week..
W64A!
long long way from the entrance... but used to it since my last class was at w4...
i can say there are a few malays in my class..
not forgetting i'm in the same class as MAZIN..
haha.. will be like sec 1&2 all over again right ma??
hahah..

i really miss my SHALIDIFA.. :(

i miss talks with lyza... eunice and felicia...
:(

back track to yesterday..
met my baby at pasir ris mrt to buy some things..
yesterday was his mum's birthday.. so he thought i could go to their place and cook for them..
but when i got there, his mum was already up and i just helped cooking..
haha.. cooked mee goreng.. met everyone except the sister who already started school at ite..
had a fun time talking with his mum, dad and bro..

this will be all.. i need to bath and eat.. i'm hhhhhhhhuuuuuuuuuunnnnnnnnnnnnngggggggggggggrrrrrryyyyyyyyyy!!!!!!!! huhu...
:) so long darlings.. hehe.. :D

just a short short post..

2009-04-11T00:11:00.003+08:00

*EDITED

just as i had something to tell him after he came back from taiwan,
i found out i only knew a PART of him.. not EVERYTHING.
there was more behind that sweet baby of mine..
turns out, he's everything i needed and more..
i'm sorry again for my judgement baby..
i'm falling more in love with my baby right now..
he means the world to me..
and i have agreed nothing will make me fade it off my mind..
not even for one second..
iloveyou darling.. ;)
muah!!!

dedicated to dearest boyfriend, syed osman.

start off with a bad day...

2009-04-09T10:47:00.003+08:00

it's damn freaking funny how one sms can brighten ur day and yet just spoils ur day... it's damn irritatingly annoying!!!! gah!!!!!!!!!! please please please kill me!!! bah!!!!!!!
it's just fascinating to me why you still have an impact on me.. despite several times i tried to get away from you.. why why why??

on a brighter side, my BABY IS HOME!!! just met up with him yesterday..
suprised me with his presents to me... bought me 2 shirts, one i can share with second sis...
a dress *hint hint to me* hahaha.. and a soft toy that he won.. huhu... :)
adding to the "family" of soft toys we have... hahaha... ;)

with school coming up, mummy dearest expects me to get the best "break" ever... despite me being pissed with my granddad, having to cook and everything else.. i think it will fall into place.. haha.. :)

it was nice talking to you darl E.. be sure to do that again? heheh.. :)

have to go get ready for work.. haha.. ;) peace y'all.. :D

babyLOVE!!!

2009-04-06T22:54:00.002+08:00

MY BABY'S COMING BACK SOON!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WWWWWWWWWWWEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
CAN'T WAIT TO HUG,KISS HIM AND ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
HUHU...

just came back from work.. today was at raffles city...
manager called in the morning... asked if i could help her...
coz another pt called in sick... -.-
so came in at 12...

TOMORROW'S OFF DAY!!!!!!!
YAHOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
dun plan to do anything except tv, lappie and FOOD!!!!
hahahaha... -.-

i miss the way we hugged,
i miss how you made me feel when i was down..
i miss you..
come back to me soon please...
:(

i miss me...

2009-04-05T23:44:00.006+08:00

*EDITED!!!

okok... time for an update..
I REBOND MY HAIR!!!
the moment i had my pay in...
went straight to the saloon and had my hair done..
and i'm so in love with it!!! hahahah...
so.. my life is completely occupied with work..
tmr will be the 8th day i'm working.. in A WEEK!!!
gah!!! tired like f***.. but still got time to update.. ironic kan??
haha..
so.. just got home.. went thru the usual stuff before reading my own blog...

MY BABY'S COMING HOME ON WED!!!! HEE.. imisshimsodamnmuch!!
huhu... ;)

for my "newly" found Gfriend..
i know all was in the past.. i know you and i have learnt from our mistakes
with a bunch of similar people...
and thanks for saying what you did.. it really means alot to me...
at the beginning of ur post.. :)

even the slightest things are good while it lasted..
i'm happy we had our times of fun and everything else..
but we have to let go somethings which are not meant to be ours..
for good or for bad..

maybe it was my fault it became this way..
maybe.. but i'm not sure of the whole story..
i'm just someone who you had in mind for a momentary lapse..
do tc...

:(

2009-03-25T23:08:00.002+08:00

so.. got msg from baby saying that he's going in the jungle for 9 days.. :(
means i wont hear his voice or get his msges even though he uses his friend's phone..
nvm.. distance makes the heart grow fonder right?? correct sharon?? hehe.. :)

just came back from work, met up with sister at lucky plaza and took cabbie home..
hahahaha... on lappie and charged phone.. talking to my darlings liyana and fatin
about tomorrow's "maybe" outing.. either which i have to be out of the house by 830..
coz i have to be at wisma when shop closes, help out with setting up of Isetan Scotts
until in the morning.. hahaha.. :) which means cabbing home!!!! hehhe...

first time out just alone, with my colleagues and others in Scotts.. hahaha.. :)

gtg.. chatting with the girls..

imy.. alot.. really.. tc baby..

sad...

2009-03-19T23:00:00.002+08:00

this is how i'm feeling right now.. sad... coz baby is leaving.. :( i will miss you very much my darling.. very very very much.. take care tau.. not sure when u'll see this post also.. but just want to let u know that i'll keep that promise... until the 8th when u come back or when we meet again... i love you so much my darling.. my dearest.. take care tau... ILY.

i'm back once again...

2009-03-19T10:11:00.004+08:00

finally today i have an off day..
hahaha..
next week will be 2... thinking i should do smth like... BIGMAC???? lyza??
heheh.. work has been tiring.. but lots of fun including with the people i work with..
CRAZY!!!! HAHAHA... "resigning" on the 10th.. told manager already..

for the past 2 days, i have been hanging out with my dearest baby..
why? coz he's going off to taiwan on friday morning.. :( haiz.. another 3 weeks without him...
i will miss you my dearest.. muah!!
today will also be hanging out.. but not for long coz told parents i was home.. -.-

i have been missing alot of people lately.. including my dearests girls, eunice, feli and lyza..
not forgetting shyieka and tash.. and my shalidifa.. :(

well... got to finally be out of bed... will be meeting baby at 2 to go to any library to pay fines for the family and baby paying his.. hahaha.. :)

till then dearests.. :)

tiring but enjoyable.. :)

2009-03-09T15:05:00.005+08:00

ok.. i'm back...
finally got work!!!!!!!!! selling ladies apparel at wisma..
with a BIG BIG DISCOUNT...
seen 2 of the company's employees are also in RP..
one is 2nd year like me while the other is just entering..
hehhe..
work has been VERY TIRING!!!
11am-9.30pm..
true about all kinds of people you meet when you're in retail..
hehehe..
friday from 3pm-10pm, sat and sun from 11am-10pm..
hehe.. :) finally i have excuse to come back late... -.- i know..
hehhe.. :)
2 days of work and i'm earning $100 alrd!!!!!!!!!!!
wwwwwwwwwwweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
and i have like another 4 days of full days up ahead... :) yahoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hehhe..

my thoughts about somethings..

i know i'm the simple one.
i know i make mistakes too.
but you're suppose to learn with me right?
isn't that what families are for?
i know i'm the youngest,but i dun have to be protected
just because i come home later than 10!!!!!!!!!!!!
god!!!!!!!! gah!!!

i know i have tried to push you away several times..
but now, i can't get u out of my head..
wish i could but i am just hoping to get a glance of you just once,
it will satisfy the crap out of me!
but we are different people with different times of being out and all..
good luck.

as times goes by, i know i will forgive myself for anything i've done wrong to any of you
but i will make a promise to forgive myself for the mistakes i did wrong to myself as a person.

i am looking forward to more months with you my darling baby.
ily.

blah!!

2009-03-03T16:07:00.002+08:00

sometimes i just need to not be myself and hide away from what is happening around me..
but it's hard when you have a family like mine who wants to be "together"
but in the ends,are in their separate rooms..
i can't say that i have alot in my mind right now..
but it seems that i have nothing else to do but think about anything and everything..
my life is very dull in the terms of me staying at home the whole week(s)..
i think just need time to myself WISELY.. -.-

lazy to update..

2009-03-02T22:41:00.003+08:00

ok.. since the last post was on the 23rd, means...
i haven't update my blog for at least a week?? heheh.. ok..
so.. have been at home.. nothing totally new..
but went out, overnight actually with baby, naayn and kbb.. on the 27th..
to celebrate kbb's 21st.. hehe.. :)
met up with kbb at orchard to fetch my sis from work, ate fish&co at bugis..
finally met up with my baby from camp to see he and his bros jamming..
first time i went jamming actually and they were good.. ;) hehehe..
then went back to bugis to meet up with kbb and sis to watch midnight movie; "he's not that into you." hehe..
good movie to watch!!! highly recommended.. heheh..
slept at 3 woke up at 9, ate at tong seng for brunch, walked around bugis and went to pasir ris park to lepak till 3..
me, sis and baby went home while kbb went for his chalet with his friends.. hehe..

today, i went out with my darlings, eunice and felicia...
to sentosa... hehhe.. went there at about 11, took off out clothes and sun tanned!!!
hehehe.. went in the water, sun tanned a little somemore till we felt drizzles..
went in to bath and the sun was back up again..
ahahah...
then went back to take the monorail to vivo...
went window shopping....
went to vivo mart to get sushi and drinks..
went up the rooftop.. sat there and ate...
went down back to fig & olive and ate somemore..
ahahaha... couldn't finish the meal we shared together...
so just went outside of vivo to chat somemore and finally went home at 8..
:)
thanks lovelies for the wonderful day and we shared more experience right??
from the water to outside vivo.. hehe..
next on will be me... ;) hehehhe.. :)

baby will be going taiwan on the 20th.. haiz.. will miss him like crazy la.. :( nvm.. hope to have another day with him soon..

to the others who i still owe dates to, i hope to fulfil them soon aite?
hopefully before my school starts again.. hehehe..
night2 readers...

belated monthsary post...

2009-02-23T17:43:00.002+08:00

on sunday, it was my 6th monthsary with my darling baby..
but we celebrated it on Saturday instead of Sunday..
met him at dhoby ghaut mrt after attending M.A.T with sis and mum
at The Legend at Fort Canning..
:)
i was wearing a white and black dress with tights..
and i can see that he was like.. whoa!! hahah..
went to cineleisure to check out movie timings..
and all were like start at 9...
i was like.. hmmm..
wanna go somewhere else??
he was like ok la..
and walked all the way to lido..
with also no luck of watching also..
so decided to go pasir ris park and relaxing.. :)
so relaxed there frm like 7 to 920..
was happy to finally see my baby after 3 weeks??? hehe.. :)
otw home, went to petrol station but didn't get to eat my haagen danz or b&j ice cream..
heheh..
baby bought ice cream, i bought kinder bueno..
he ate at my round about and went home.. :)
good to say, it was a nice day with just my baby alone..
:)

baby, even though it was only 6 months we are together,
it was a good 6 months.. we had our ups and downs but
we still went through it..
i love you.
muah!

GPA...

2009-02-23T17:42:00.002+08:00

I PASSED!!!!!!!!!!
WOHOO!!
HAHAHA.. :)
YEAR 2 OF RP.. HERE I COME!!
HEHEHE.. :)
YAHOO!!
:)

bad bad mood...

2009-02-19T22:25:00.003+08:00

can i please say that???
gosh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
gah!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

oh well..
today i FINALLY went out...
to tm to meet shameen for VS stuff that my eldest bought from her..
heheh.. thankies!!!!
thenwalk to tamp library for sis to return her books..
and she dragged me in till ard 430..
then we took train to pasir ris and to yew tee to meet her boyfie..
hehe.. and i saw hyn in the train..
long time didn't see that boy..
hehe... then met sis's boyfie and went to city hall for long john..
got to knew sis's boyfie more...
then i just meet him and not talk..
hehehe..

and i finally know how much i treasure my boyfie..
gosh.. i miss him so much..
just hope mummy will let me to go out on sat after appreciation tea at fort canning..
haiz.. i'm so sorry baby..
i really really am..

I REALLY NEED TO GO OUT OFTEN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
WITH GFs; eunice, felicia, w47k, late nights with lyza, meet-ups with mira and mash..
haiz..
i really do miss this people and how they can just make my day...
without my parents breathing down my throat everytime i come home later than 10-11...
:(
can i please have the freedom???
damn the mother f**ker it!!!!!!!!!!!!!

happy happy!!!

2009-02-13T19:42:00.002+08:00

well...
last week saturday i think.
me and the family went on singapore flyer..
for most of them is the first..
while it was my second..
anyways.. after the "flight"
my family and I went to North Bridge Road..
to have our dinner... TULANG!!!
hahahah..
and so..
that was the only interesting thing happening to me...

and i got a job!!!
hahaha...
received a msg from the company asking if i was still interested..
and they will contact me once they have the details..
hahahaha... YAY!!!!
THE FOUR BOOKS OF THE "TWILIGHT" SEQUEL!!!
AND I HAVE FINISHED ALL 4!!!!
YAHOO TO ME!!!!
accomplishment sia for me...
to sit in front of the lappie and read for like 3-4 hours per day..
and it took me... like 2-3 weeks to finish these...
yahoo!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

kk... that is the only update i have for you darls..
and... before i forget...
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY TO ELIZABETH!!!
hope u have a wonderful time tmr...
sorry... unable to make it... :(
will meet up and do lunch or something somewhere special aite??
<3s!! style="font-size:78%;">and baby.. i miss you alot!! :(

a new new new day... :)

2009-02-08T18:41:00.004+08:00

well..
about the previous post...
i told this girl all about it..
and i have gotten over it..
ALL THANKS TO LYZA!!
hahaha..
i am over it.
i should not brood over it.
I AM OVER IT.
YOU CAN DO WITHOUT THIS SHIT!

ok..
that's about that..
moving on..
tmr going kakyanti's bbq..
at pasir ris..
sis asked mummy to bring me along..
so of course..
mummy gave the thumbs up..
whahah..
will be seeing my "kakak angkats" there..
hhehehe..

my week has been kinda boring..
another week staying at home..
except thursday..
went for interview at *****...
still havent called..
but wth??
school's gonna start soon enough..
coming to mid-feb alrd..
haish..

everything is still the same..
just dreading to stay at home longer...

lyza.. i hope i can make it for the bbq u just told me about kk?

shalidifa... my dearest sem2 classies.. hope i can go escape with u this time..
if not.. i really really am kk? and w47k.. can we please have a chalet... please????? i would love to help out in the planning..
but if no one says about it... then.. :(

eunice and felicia...
since 25th is both ur last papers (i think), then we shall celebrate on the 26th??? hehehe.. :) i was thinking of what we did last year... what do u think?? hmmm.. haha..

ANYTHING.. PEOPLE... MSG ME... OR TAGGIE!!! MY TAGBOARD IS DEAD..

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAYS TO
ANNISA
GAYATHRI

AND ADVANCE WILL BE
KAK YANTI
LYZA
FELICIA...

the post that brings it all back...

2009-02-04T21:10:00.004+08:00

oh dear freaking god..

why now? when i finally have moved on with the things in my life.

this again.. the mistake.. i know it was THE BIGGEST OF MY LIFE..

but from a person whom i was close to...

and i just can't face her or anyone who knows..

coz it seems that EVERYONE knows about IT!

oh god....

i thought i was past all this..

really i thought i was..

but everything i thought goes wrong..

incredibly wrong..

all my actions, my thought about things/people..

ALL WRONG..

AND I'M THE ONE MISERABLE FOR MY THOUGHTS

and MY ACTIONS...

GOSH....

I FEEL LIKE I'M IN SEM 1 AGAIN...

only people who i really am close with knows what i'm talking about. including friends who know sem 1 people.. why now? why her? why this AGAIN!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

ARGH!

on a lighter note,

darling sweet escape lyza's birthday is coming up..

i'm sorry darl if i can't make it for anything u have..

but i wish u a happy celebrations with your Usuals and anyone else aite?

<3s!

2009-02-01T21:26:00.002+08:00

i cut my hair AGAIN..

just like this AGAIN..

coz my sisters wanted to

and i was itchy fingers and go together with them and cut also..

hahaha..

and yea... it's the same length and shorter fringe.. :(

bohoo...

hahaha..

so...

i think i will be "grounded" as

i am too damn lazy to find a job..

and my sisters said that the jobs will not be hiring

as cny and the other hols are over..

haiyoh...

hehhe..

just hope i wont have 10 days that i can go out as o have 10 weeks of hols..

heheh.. :)

i just hope that everything will be ok..

this has been very painful for me as

someone in your life, your girlfriend.

i'm trying my very best to forget everything

that went thru

i'm trying..

god..

i didn't know this was so damn hard..

2009-01-28T21:38:00.002+08:00

the outing i had with baby with his friends..
another 2 missing..
one taking the photo of course..
well.. just hope u guys wont be late
and i can spend more time getting to know you..
and 3 PEOPLE out of the group was from RP!
hhahaha..
-.- i know.

sad sad post..

2009-01-25T11:53:00.002+08:00

met up with my baby ystd
to go for a dinner with his friends..
for the first time, i met the whole group of them
sad for me, i had to leave after 20 mins after the food came..
:(
but overall, it was finally nice to meet baby's friends..
thank you baby for the great time..
ily.
darlings..
i hope i can go little india with u girls on thu with gaya aite?
i miss u all already..
meet soon and hope our friendship doesn't turn rotten aite?
loves!
W47K... the last picture with u all as my classmates..
took on communication lesson..
the last lesson of sem 2 year 1..
had 3 different locations for class on fri..
1st meeting-W47K classroom
2nd meeting-library
3rd meeting-north agora..

well..
that is about all the updates i could think of..
take good care dear readers..

wee... i'm happy..

2009-01-21T22:13:00.007+08:00

well..

my darlings..

this was the dress i wore on monday

which shocked alot of my classmates.

coz usually i wear jeans or shorts..

hahaha..

well..

feeling girly so..

used this la..

and on tuesday

wore a "salsa-ish" skirt

according to sharon which i agree..

hahaa..

and usual,

the class was shocked..

so yesterday, i wore jeans..

haha..

till next time people,

u shall not see me in skirt

till not sure when also..

-.-

haha..

sem 2 is coming to an end soon..

i really hope dinner could be ok

on friday night

but seems like..

only pizza on second break..

haiz..

not sure also what is gonna be..

the girl on the extreme left..

wearing black..

which my friendship with her grew more distant

after something happened during sem 1 in RP

i would like to wish her

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY.

even though i dun know whether she will look upon this blog or not

but it's the thought that counts right?

well..

TODAY marks my 5th monthsary

for me and my darling baby..

hehe.

i just can't believe it la..

haha..

ily darl..

alot alot alot alot alot alot..

hehe..

(personal joke. -.-)

ily baby!

TWILIGHT!!!!!!!! AGAIN...

2009-01-17T21:02:00.003+08:00

i'm reading the second book of TWILIGHT..

hehehe.. :)

thanks to darl fatin..

hehe..

i'm like falling in love more with EDWARD CULLEN can?

hehe..

nvm la..

i have my darling bf..

heheh..

sudden urge to post this up..

"I wondered how long this could last. Maybe someday, years from now—if the pain would

just decrease to the point where I could bear it—I would be able to look back on those

few short months that would always be the best of my life. And, if it were possible that

the pain would ever soften enough to allow me to do that, I was sure that I would feel

grateful for as much time as he'd given me. More than I'd asked for, more than I'd

deserved. Maybe someday I'd be able to see it that way."

this is part of the second book.

something that i really liked..

and could help me through something

i went through some time ago..

hehe..

back to reading now..

hehe.. :)

:(

2009-01-16T14:21:00.005+08:00

well..
it's friday on the 2nd last week of school
and i'm damn bloody bored to the core..
hopefully baby could brighten up my mood
coz just being in school doesn't..

on wed,
met up with mashita and mira..
at tamp..
just realxed, talk and laugh..
in mira's words,
i laughed alot..
haha..
to me, it was my usual laughing self..
which usually means i'm in a good mood.
so talked about everything and anything that came to my mind..
another outing dearests? heh..

ystd, finally met up with my dearest and missed sweet escape, lyza..
it's like about time..
so talked to each other about our problems respectively.
suppose to meet her at big mac at 5, but as usual, the girl is late..
haha..
so met her at coming to 6, ate ljs as lyza ate her dinner
and i just had chocolate pie...
walked to big mac..
did the usual..
talked and talked..
and usual.. i had to be home early..
:(
but nvm...

dearest mashita and lyza..
i knw ur bdays are near..
and i'm sorry but only my wishes are with you
coz i'm broke..
sorry darls..
but i'm hoping the best celebration for you with ur dearests..
aite??
loves darl..

i'm fickle-minded right now..
i dun want school to end, but i do at the same time..
with dearest classies and the facis i will miss..

but i do want to be independent and work
hopefully parents will let..
haiz..

i have my darling right now..
and i'm proud to have him as mine..
i do..
ily baby..
muah..

2009-01-13T21:50:00.002+08:00

well..
this is my post ever since 6-jan..
well..
school has been school..
missing everyone around me..
especially lyza, boyfie, eunice, felicia..
and the rest who are close to me..

the fact that school is finishing..
is like..
not real to me..
it's like one year has gone damn fast
IN SCHOOL..
sem 1, sem 2
coming to my second year in rp..
gosh.
just hope i can get the 5-day week for sem 1
and rest for sem 2 (4-day week)
and don't forget my 2 weeks off..
btw which i have to go for briefing
on 19th for my course..
the rest has seen the email
and asked me to remind them..
-.-
it seems to me
that i have just started poly
but in fact, i'm ending my first year in poly..

to my darlings who read my post
and who already took ur O's results,
don't worry aite?
things will get better in time..
look at me in fact..
a 26-28 pointer in RP,
enjoying herself with friends
who are ever happy..
(SHALIDIFA!)
no worries aite?
there must be something behind that
which will get better in time..

*boyfie..
imy darl..
:(

well.. that is about all..
my life up till now..
:(
haha..
i shall update..
when i feel like it kk?
haha..

happy entry after such a long time..

2009-01-06T21:21:00.005+08:00

the dependable dayang-dayang..
hahhaha...
this was my sister's poly friend
engagement ceremony held at aranda country club..
hahaha...
the ceremony was a success.
thank god..
and i was the "fake" camerawoman
according to kak yanti
who was the one who got engaged..
-.-
hahaha..
anyways, congrats sis and
hope to be able to help you
during ur big day kk?
hehehe..

and yes..
this is the pic with me and kak yanti..
hehehe...
:)

i know i have been emo-ing
since like new years..
i'm still not sure why i have been feeling
despite just knowing the answer to a question
that has been lingering in my mind
and somehow or another,
it didn't really helped..
but at least i know i tried to know about it
rather than just keeping hush
which i have been doing
around family and friends..
p.s. this is not about boyfie..
heheh..
:)

well,
truth be told,
i'm confused myself
with everything around me now
not sure why also..
:(

but thanks to tash darling for asking
;)

i also don't know why
i have been blogging so much also
hhaha..
-.-

i miss lyza...
:(
i'm sorry for not being there for you lately
and we have a lot to catch up..

guess will stop here for now..
nite darls..
:)

2009-01-05T22:07:00.003+08:00

there is something i wanna share..
or it's just for me alone..
a longer stand on my new year resolution
which was my rj question
when school reopen in the morning..
:)

My New Year’s Resolution is to be a good person to all those around me including myself. 2008 was a tough year for me as soon as I got into RP and got in some things that I wasn’t proud of and would just let go of the past as it has passed and I have to move on and learn from my mistakes. Even though this could help me to be a better person, it can change you to a person that you or your friends might not like at all and it is too late to change back to who you used to be as the person that made a huge mistake in her life, tried to be a better person and regrets changing for the better. I will just change my habits and not change my entire well-being.

Another one of my resolutions, enjoy life as it comes. Every mistake that you do can lead to anything that can go wrong. But some also help you realise them and try to change you for the better. I just hope that it is both so I can learn the pros and cons of life and learn from it for more years to come.

Finish my Year 1 studies as the term is coming to the end, try my very best to participate in class like how I used to in the previous lessons, try to pull up my grades and hope to get a 3.0 GPA. Learn well for the UTs, try my best and don’t give up halfway through. And treasure my friends as they come in my life and before it’s too late, tell them how much I treasure my friendship with them as I have lost good friends before because my actions and I didn’t tell them how much they meant to me.

Treasure any more friendships I have with my other friends outside RP. Before they hear anything that could ruin my friendship with them over some actions I wasn’t really proud of like what I said earlier on.

I just hope that all this will be accomplished and 2009 will be a good year for me.

so.. yea..
the colour that is most important is red, purple, maroon and blue.
simple terms, it's backwards based on the importance..
hehe..

some has really open my eyes
to what is happening around me
EVERYTHING AROUND ME..
i really hate this feeling
like i don't fit in anywhere else
including home
friends are no longer there for me when i need them,
family are too busy to even notice my change in attitude
or they just couldn't be bothered..

haiz...
wish i could just *** my life right now..
damn...
good night readers...

2009-01-05T09:04:00.004+08:00

i thought the first day back at school
will be fun and joyful
but it turned the other way
once i took the bus..

this was something i came up in the bus

whenever i see someone,
my heart skips a beat..
but in need of a deep breathe,
i try to relax my mind
i never thought anyone would make me feel that way,
but someone did and i was amused by it..
i hope there is more than
meets the eye and my feelings.

and when i reached school after smoking,
i knew it was gonna be different
and it is..
and somehow or another
it sucks..

i knew it was gonna be different
and somehow or another,
i wished that i could skip school
i hope that i could meet up
with my sweet escape (LYZA!)
i hope that every opportunity that
i have, i can meet up with you
and catch up on things way back

i am seriously hoping that
everything will be ok right now
as it kills me to feel this way
back again
as it did for sem 1...

shit head.
i seriously hate this shit..

last post of 2008!

2008-12-30T21:44:00.005+08:00

the last photo of 261208
hahha..
-.-
i know..

anyways,
plannig with dearest now about TMR!
he's planning with his friends to go
MARINA BARRAGE!!
yahoo!!
haha..
has been reading like blogs,
saying they have been there
and nice and all
so yea..
i will be there with baby, his friends also..

*the plan was cancelled coz of a relatives death
but baby still went on with his friends
sorry my dear..

the new year is near..
one more day actually..
well,
turn back the clock abit about 2008,
got back with *ehem* and broke up again
got hell for sem 1's shit
but thank god it's over
got to know my dearest also..
happiest choice i ever made.
got to know my darling
RP classmates..
both sem 1 and sem 2
good to have them in my life
even though we have been separated (Sem 1)
and we will be separated after 3 weeks of school (Sem 2)
but we will definitely be friends forever right dearies?
especially shafiqah and SHALIDIFA.
thank you girls for coming in my life and staying in it
after the shit and misunderstandings we have been through

must be a little relieved that the gap with family
is closer together
with sisters being understanding, mummy being mummy,
brother being as evil as always and daddy being daddy.
i got to know brother-in-law more in depth this year
but i hope i can be treated more like a sister than a maid next year onwards

secondary school darlings..
lyza, eunice, felicia and sufie
well,
despite our busy schedules,
we have kept in touch
by sms, talking..
i just hope next year will be a lot different

dearest...
knowing you this year has made it one hell of a ride for me
(good thing though.) ;)
we shall keep it together and be happy ok?
ily darling..
alot..

alot of shit has happened in 2008
and i should leave them behind.
even though some have done me good
while some made me realised my mistakes in life.
it will be remembered but just as a 2008 memory.
2009 will be a new beginning for me

*new years resolution:

be a better person towards family,friends and boyfie
realise my mistakes and learn from them and not repeat them again
enjoy life as it comes.

HAPPY NEW YEAR DARLINGS!!!!!

2008-12-26T23:08:00.002+08:00

met my darlings today...
like finally right??
haha..
met eunice with her boyfie first..
went arcade while waiting for
dearest feli to come with her boyfie..
and finally met that girl at ard.. 4.15?
haha.. me and eunice were like outside macs
eating ice cream
whahahha..
-.-
so..
went around bugis like for the second time
talked to them
met eunice's bf and friends
to eat dinner
walked around somemore
before heading to tcc for drinks
before going home..

overall today..
WAS DAMN FUN LA..
AND CHAOS AS USUAL
WITH THE TWO..
HAHAHA..
it was nice seeing you two together again
with alvin and alex of course..
hehe..
baby is at somerset with his friends..
didn't want to ask him to send me home
though we miss each other like crazy..
but it's ok..
hopefully i can meet u at new years' eve..
hehe..

iloveyou
and my darlings too...

*to those who i can't meet during my hols now,
deepest apologies..
i really do want to
but limited days out la..
as usual..
-.-

2008-12-23T14:37:00.006+08:00

kk. i know i have a very long update..

haha...

kk..
monday...
met baby on the train
coz his bike was 'bocor'
hehe..
sent lappie for repair
to know that i have to pay for the damage
as the warranty doesn't cover the damage.
came back at ard 4
when eldest at home.
whahaha..
-------------------
tuesday-thursday
stayed at home, no lappie but got desktop
cook as always,
pissed off as always..
-------------------
friday,
met baby downstairs blk 33
went to acer to take my lappie
and i didn't have to go to school!!
to re-format....
hahahaha...
so hanged out with baby
at pasir ris park
from like 1-5...
came home and didn't have to cook...
hehehehe...
--------------------
saturday..
met mummy at bdk int and went for a wedding at jln tenaga.
was very very nice...
--------------------
sunday...
went for mummy colleague's sons wedding
at ard dover i think...
hahaha...
and as all sundays,
it was a very relax-ing day...
--------------------
monday..
sent grandfather to ployclinic till around 12
met mummy at hospital at 12
ate and went home
FOR MY DATE!!!
WHAHAHA..
came home at ard 2,
dressed up the fastest way possible
and met him at 2.40 at blk 33..
i saw the handsome-est man i have ever seen..
hehe..
the first time i saw him wear a shirt..
hehehe..
and i got a gift...
ferrero roche with a tigger key chain..
hehehe..
;)
so..
saw movie at vivo...
hhee..
TWILIGHT BABY!!!
hehhee..
saw the 4.50pm movie
came out of the theatre at 7.10pm...
smoked for like the 4th time that day..
whahaha...
so, we went up to mount faber
AND IT WAS SUPPPPPPPPPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEEERRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR NICE UP THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
really...
at night..
omg!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
hahaha..
so...went home at before 10,
my earliest ever to be home...
930pm...
whahahahahahahah...
:)
-----------------
tuesday,
so slept at 12, after watching the oc online...
baby went home at 4 after going to bugis for lan gaming
with his buddies...
heheh..
so i woke up at 10
and now, i'm watching "The Dark Knight"
with bro-in-law and both my darling sisters..
whahha..
:)

and i'm sorry to classmates
to buey you for my boyfriend..
i'm sorry darls..
and now, i can't go out anymore.
so very sorry my dears...
:(

overall...
my holidays are coming up to my standards
and i'm ok enjoying it..
hehehhehe..
:)

i know this has been a very long post..
hehehe.
:)
loves to one and all.
muah!

2008-12-14T19:21:00.002+08:00

you had no right to talk to me

with ur middle finger pointing towards me

like others in the family,

i too have a feelings.

i have always treated you fairly

and this is what i get in return?

no more thank you's for anything

i do for you

and this is the only time

i see you as an elder

as this is the only time

you talk to me as one.

but you had no right to use your

middle finger on me

please don't make me lose respect for you

as i did for the head.

please don't...

i seriously need my baby

and my girls damn badly...

can my 3 weeks hols come to an end sooner?

please.

2008-12-12T13:36:00.002+08:00

haha...

so i'm blogging now..

as my teammates have finished what we are supposed to do..

out of 3, we have done 2..

whahah.. :)

and... today is communication..

who..

the facilitator is co-incidentally

my uncle - my dad's step-brother...

hhahahaha...

anyways...

my lappie is spoilt...

going acer on mon..

with dearie..

haaha..

damn.. i miss that boy..

hehe..

muah...

i will try to go out

with anyone that asks me out..

BUT PLEASE...

DON'T ASK ME OUT LAST MINUTE...

haha..

well..

the confirmed ones that i will be going out with

is...

of coz, my darling, shalidifa, lyza, classies (if picnic does work out)

eunice and feli, fatheha cuzzie...

and the rest...

ask me out kk?

hehhe..

and hopefully, i won't be lazy enough to meet u people..

hehe..

and this is the last post

before my lappie goes for hospital..

:( *shad*

till then...

iloveyou.

and take care people..

whahahhaa... :p

2008-12-07T14:51:00.004+08:00

daddy's birthday picture taken with the family..

hahah...

and he's wearing his new t-shirt

that was bought by

bro,gf,both sis and bro-in-law.

hahah...

we had dinner at bedok north..

normal place..

had fish and chips

that wasn't really that nice..

hahaha..

oops...

my darling sisters..

i really enjoyed last night-today morning

with you two and billy of course...

after dinner, the 4 of us

went to cineleisure..

with daddy's permission of course

for both me and 2nd sis...

we watched nick&norah's infinite playlist!!

IT'S DAMN BLOODY NICE LA!!

people..

you should go watch if you were

in a lovey-dovey mood!!

haha..

after this movie,

i badly wanted to see baby..

but he was back in camp

for duty..

haha..

poor dearie..

but now,

he's soundly asleep at home..

hehe..

my SHALIDIFA!!

i'm so sorry for not spending friday with you girls

and took advantage of the opportunity

to go out with boyfie..

i'm sorry darlings..

i would never forget what you girls

have done for me

even thought we have been friends

for only like...

13-15 weeks?

it seems as though i know you girls

when we were still young...

if i can, i will see if you girls are free to go out,

before making plans with boyfie kk?

i'm sorry darls..

lyza, eunice and feli dearest..

please fret not...

i have not forgotten you darls..

despite our busy schedules..

my hols are on 13 dec till 1st jan..

we go out kk?

iloveallofyou...

i really really do...

muah!!

2008-12-03T13:29:00.002+08:00

i know this is damn random la..

this picture was taken

in tanjung pinang..

by nano i think...

while waiting for my uncle

to pick us up at the market

haiz...

i'm feeling a lil lethargic

not sure why..

maybe it's just school

or just knowing that my

3 WEEKS HOLS ARE OTW!!

hahahaha..

i wanna wake up at 10..

still on my bed till ard 1130...

watching tv till 1230-130..

finally bathing at 2...

cook and do whatever is needed...

den rest, lappie and whatever i feel like doing

that day..

damn...

i miss that life..

whahahaha..

but now...

have a lot of things to do during that 3 weeks..

meet up with baby of course...

meet-ups with my darlings...

eunice, felicia wee, lyza, shyieka,

fatheha cuzzie, my SHALIDIFA!!

haha..

alot of people to meet during 3 weeks

of break..

but when school officially closes...

there will be more things to be done

and meetings...

whahaha..

2008-12-02T11:26:00.007+08:00

this is the sunset

at tanjung pinang, indonesia..

the place is peaceful

compared to singapore..

despite the horns from the cars...

it looks damn peaceful there...

feels peaceful

with family and relatives..

when i was there

i wasn't thinking about anything..

except for my baby...

*that happens everyday without fail.*

for some reason,

i'm feeling...

lost...

i'm not sure why

but i know for certain

that it's just me

and my usual

over-reaction of things around me

family picture without brother

at tanjung pinang

celebrating brother-in-law's bday..

hehe...

picture of me and darling nano

that i like...

haha...

for most of the time

it's usually me and 2nd sis

and she and 2nd sis..

but this time it's me and her..

hahaha...

iloveyou my darling nano..

muah..

2008-11-25T22:12:00.005+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=19rC-Fl-KwM

i just felt like listening to this song

and i'm back to loving it all over again..

i wish that i could turn back time

to sem 1 after doing my mistakes

until now....

somethings are better left unsaid and unseen

rather than let out to the wrong party.

(not pointing fingers to anyone i swear.)

well...

i really am in need to catch up

with lyza and shyieka.

close darling friends,

eunice and felicia..

(we'll meet soon kk?

i promise...

during our(eunice and feli)

dec hols... kk?)

having a boyfie can be good and bad

being to dependent on him

clingy (which i used to be but not now.) ;)

and best of all

someone to love you back

the way u love them.

i love you syed osman.

"forever and ever babe."

;)

mmmmmmmuuuuuuuaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!

2008-11-25T11:25:00.002+08:00

yes yes i know..

i have un-privatised my blog..

like FINALLY...

for the benefits who were lazy

to type their invitations...

hahaa...

i know to some of you,

i have made promises to meet..

but i just dun have the time..

eg.. lyza and dearest cuzzie..

u know i have my time limit

and i am just too tired to meet u guys after sch

i just hope i can catch up with u

during my 3 weeks hols!!

COMING UP SOON!!

and the best part of it all...

i have someone to celebrate with me!!

BOYFIE!!

hahah..

he also took up leave during my break..

without even knowing i had breaks..

whahaha...

yay!!

so now, i can wake up late

and talk to someone while still

on my bed, with my eyes closed..

whahaha...

that is about all the update i have on myself

hahaha..

ily people!!!!!!!!!!

hee..

2008-11-22T22:09:00.002+08:00

a picture of me, kak munie and my sister

on 18/11/08,

kak munie's 21st birthday.

hee..
baby..

thanks for today..

really enjoyed myself with you

for such a long time.

happy 3rd month baby..

i love you many2 kk?

for my dear classies..

sorry...

another day i will go out with u k?

promise..

let's chao and go out..

heheh..

lyza!!!!

biler mau jumpa?

imy sia!!

haha...

a very very long post...

2008-11-16T21:33:00.002+08:00

this girls made my day on sat...

after helping mummy at dmps,

rushed home to get baby's shirt

and went down to dg..

and even though i had to go

a long way,

i was the second to reach..

hahha...

me, fang, sharon and fatin

waited for liyana

at starbucks..

met up

and we went all over to find

the puurr-fect prezzies

for the 3 nov babies this week

alone..

haha..

and we did..

haha..

took the train to farrer park..

went into mustafa..

walked again to little india

for liyana to find her 'ladoo'

asked them if it was ok

if i went to meet boyfie..

they were ok with it..

thankies babies..

more outing okie?

met baby at pasir ris..

with sham...

went to changi for dinner...

and lepak2 at changi beach...

found more amazing things about this

man i love...

haha..

his 2 other friends came

but i had to leave...

in the end,

i had fun with baby and sham..

more outings, dearie?

hee...

i am so in love with this picture..

i have no idea why also..

hahaha...

wanting more time

for myself at home

is so damn bloody eff-ing hard...

just today alone..

more than 5 times,

my family ticked me off..

really..

i think it's them

or it's just me again?

haiz...

how i wish i have

a carefree lifestyle...

but no one has that...

bohoo...

haiz...

i really damn wonder...

when my family will

stop picking on me...

i know i am the only one

who is home often..

among my sibs...

but still..

i have my own life to live

even though i am not at home like 13 hrs?

gosh...

just the night that i need for myself

and they had to ruin it..

but it can also be said...

that it is my fault too..

but half the time...

it isn't...

gosh...

haiz...

damn it..

2008-11-14T12:04:00.002+08:00

damn...

when i thought everything is going A-OK,

it went badly..

bohoo..

nvm..

i have to look forward..

and not look back..

i have my babies...

i have my friends...

i need the happiness right now..

i need anyone right now...

i love myself..

i love my baby

i love my family

even though half the time

they drive me nuts..

i love my friends...

muacks

muacks..

2008-11-11T09:31:00.002+08:00

OK PEOPLE!!

i'm back and

in a good mood!!

haha..

but having a cough, flu and slight fever..

:( bohoo..

haha..

the posts last time was just how i felt

about everything around me..

haha..

and everything is A-OK!!

yahoo!!

muah!!

2008-11-07T23:33:00.002+08:00

i just realised something..

i am not me

without baby.

i feel empty.

without him there to guide me

without him being there for me

overall..

i am falling with him

even more right now..

hoping that i will last long with him

i know we both can make each other

happy..

very happy.

him just being in singapore alone

makes me feel complete..

i miss this part of me

the sentimental shit.

writing what i am feeling right now.

like what i have been doing for

the past few posts.

the guys who have been in and out

of my life..

i hope my baby will remain in

for a very long time

hyn,

i hope we can be like friends before.

the idiotic assholes

can go and die!!

for other guy friends that

reads my blog,

i hope we can be friends..

MY GIRLS..

I KNOW I HAVEN'T BEEN MYSELF LATELY..

CLASSIES..

THANK YOU FOR

WHAT YOU HAVE GIVEN ME SO FAR.

CLOSE DARLING FRIENDS

(LYZA, EUNICE, FELI, TASH, SHYIEKA)

I MISS YOU GUYS.. REALLY..

PLEASE MEET SOON..

OTHERS..

THANKS FOR YOUR FRIENDSHIP

ALL THIS WHILE..

bottom line for this post..

i love all of you.

bohoo...

2008-11-06T20:50:00.002+08:00

haiz..

i really dun know what the heck to say

despite meeting baby..

my mood is still the same as before.

why now?

it's good to be early than late..

i agree..

but as in this particular timing?

i dun hate people who pass judgements about me

but..

who doesn't?

haiz..

i really dun know what the heck to do anymore..

mother fucker piece of crap!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

:'(

2008-11-06T14:23:00.002+08:00

i just love this girls alot..

had a talk today

about everything and

anything..

had crying sessions..

about me..

only..

i never had so much attention

from girls or in fact..

anyone..

thank you for ur ears darl..

appreciate u alot right now.

muah..

ilovemybaby!!

muah!!

2008-11-05T12:16:00.004+08:00

i think it's just me

as an overall..

really..

i am not even sure

why i am even upset

about today..

today should be a happy day for me

as i decided to let everyone go

LITERALLY!!!

the only thing that holds me here

still in class

is the end of the day,

I'LL BE MEETING MY BABY!!!

why why why

2008-11-03T20:18:00.003+08:00

this picture says that

i'm waiting for a train that never arrives

haiz..

when i come home in a good mood,

my family will turn it down..

crap la sia!!

really damn fucked up!!

argh!!

:'(

wish baby was here to listen to me

whining away but make me happy at

the end of it all..

haiz..

this really says it all.

i want to not say anything

show no expressions..

but i'll be like a dead girl walking

on the streets and in school..

damn it..

mother fucker..

shit..

asshole..

argh!!

2008-11-03T14:13:00.004+08:00

don't mind the pic..

was just mad...

in the lift..

haha..

well..

today started school..

and the moment i had my classies in,

IT WAS GOOD!!

but what would be better

if baby is back from aussie..

haiz..

nvm..

2 more days to him

coming back..

he's coming back on

wed morning..

nvm..

all is good now..

haha..

idiots are out of my life..

classies are my daily doses of laughter

joy

and

everything else..

life is good now..

hyn just got back..

*jgn nottie2 ehk.. during ur probation..

and..

glad to have u back.*

;)

2008-11-01T19:04:00.003+08:00

i am wondering to myself..

why i put myself to so much trouble

thinking about anything

when i can just brush it aside and

DUN WORRY AT ALL!!!

somehow or another

i think god is trying to test me..

really..

people pissing me off..

taking my things..

realising how much i miss my

babygirls

and my one and only babyboy..

i really am nowhere

without them constantly around me..

school hols can be good

when u want them

but it's bad

when u don't want them.

i thought it will be good

to let my brains rest for a week..

but it was more under pressure

rather than in school..

LITERALLY!!!

god,

please help me

to take whatever shit in my mind

and put it to rest..

i dun want this headache anymore.

i want my heart to be in the right place

in the right state of mind.

please

please..

2008-10-28T11:14:00.003+08:00

ok...

my pms... is slightly over..

hee..

thanks to babies who were there for me

whether on sms or taggies..

thank you loves..

made a new friend again..

from the mat-rep group..

kua3...

the only thing i can say

is... he... is...

16... hahaha...

hee..

he's ok la..

btw..

i really have not done anything for him...

and i won't... haha.. REALLY!!

for those who know abt sem 1,

u know what i mean by this..

hee...

school hols are here...

:D...

but i think i will dreading this..

if anyone asks me out,

i am so willing to go la!!

haha..

lyza..

when i feel like going out,

and u are not working..

starbucks here we come??

hee...

baby is coming back on the 5th..

bohoo!!

another one more week without him..

haiz..

had my final collection of raye $$..

$16.. ok la..

haha..

I WANT RETAIL THERAPY...

(WHEN I FEEL LIKE IT..)

I WANT MY GIRLIES..

(SOON I HOPE... HEE..)

I WANT MY BOYFIE BACK!!

('I SHAD'... BOHOO..)

that is about it folks..

till then..

bye...

later la..

update..

when i feel damn bloody bored!!

kua3..

2008-10-24T11:54:00.002+08:00

I DUN KNOW WHY I'M FEELING THIS WAY..

I'M FEELING

PISSED,

MOODY,

FUCKED UP!

ARGH!!

I REALLY NEED MY DARLINGS..

MY GIRLS..

DAMN IT!!

ARGH!!

FUCKED UP!!

MOTHER F***

2008-10-22T15:54:00.002+08:00

this has been the most irritating day ever

now... for second sem...

baby already went away,

class is just being annoying.

life is just boring...

life is just full of shit of everything.

i need my girls..

i need my laughter club with them..

i need cigarettes..

i need alcoholic drinks..

i need music..

i need myself..

i need some space..

I NEED MY GIRLS..

damn it..

life is just boring right now..

2 weeks without baby..

it's just blank..

my girls are just busy now..

eunice and feli is going to start school soon..

tash is busy with school

even though we meet each other sometimes..

lyza is just waiting for me to meet up with her..

hahaha...

classmates are awesome..

maybe it's just me..

i think time of the month coming..

darn..

I NEED A CIGARETTE..

2008-10-21T09:03:00.005+08:00

i know all my recent posts have been about my boyfie and classmates..

sorry people..

haha..

i know u must have been like OMG AGAIN?

haha..

no doubt with all that happiness around me,

i still miss the people that have been there for me

even before all the happiness came about..

lyza, eunice, felicia and tash..

u have been there for me when i needed a chat..

about ANYTHING..

u 4 know my deepest yet sad stories..

i'm sorry u have to read my blog

to know my updates..

I PROMISE...

SOON..

MEET UPS AITE

DEARIES?

I'M SORRY..

2008-10-20T13:26:00.005+08:00

my darling boyfie...

gosh...

gonna miss him like nuts..

even though like friday and sat,

met him..

it's nvr enough...

take care bby..

i promise to be good...

waiting for you patiently

and not cry when i think of you.

this is my classmates

who went for my faci's open house..

as u can see...

fadyl's the only boy that was brave enough

to follow all the girls..

sadly, this is just our clique

(not including fadyl of course)

whahhaa...

and yea...

imissingyoubaby

take care in aussie..

2008-10-18T22:42:00.008+08:00

so...

went to surya's house today..

with dear classies..

fatin, sharon, fadyl, fakhitah, rui fang and liyana.

the rest had something on or sick.

reached at 2,

since it was delayed

due to fadyl just woke up at 12..

haiz...

so..

like what i told boyfie,

no matter how long i take to go to a particular place

i still will be the earliest..

AND I WAS...

HAHA....

so.. like 10-15 minutes of waiting,

they arrived..

fadyl wore blue, fatin wore white,

fakhitah wore purple, liyana wore red.

AND I WORE MY MAROON SONGKET!!

sharon wore brown top, rui fang wore pink top with skirt.

haha.. of course took pics...

FATIN... SYG DIE...

HAHAHA..

and met bby at pasir ris at ard 6.

not sure to go,

and again, lepak-ed at pasir ris park.

until 830..

GOSH.. I'M GONNA MISS MY BOYFIE

FOR 2 WEEKS..

:( HAIZ..

NVM..

READING HIS MSGS WILL

HELP ME THROUGH..

WHAHA..

to dearest cuz, sorry...

maaf...

hee...